An Open Letter to My Mentor

You know who you are,

There are a lot of things that I wish I had the confidence to tell you in person, but I wouldn’t know where to begin, and knowing me, I’d probably stumble over my words. The only thing I can think of right now is to tell you….thank you.

Thank you, for letting me be brave and allow myself to open up to you. Being open and honest and letting you get a glimpse into my life has been anything but easy. Explaining myself, and who I am has been one of the hardest things I’ve ever done, and sometimes I wonder what would’ve happened if I didn’t do it. You know 99.9% about me, and that’s so unnerving, but thank you for not betraying my trust, and keeping the my failures, my weaknesses, and my mistakes in a safe place.

Thank you, for the times you encouraged me and believed in me. You made me feel special, valued, and important. Your support helped me through a lot of rough days, and you were there whenever I needed a venting buddy. I appreciate that, and I appreciate you for listening to my dramas over & over again. To you, they may have been pointless or silly,  and if you felt that way, you never showed it. Instead you exercised patience with me – which is something I definitely wasn’t used to.

Thank you, for reading the seemingly endless amount of articles that I’ve sent you. Whether they were to help you better understand the feelings I was going through, or whether it was something that I wrote and anxiously awaited feedback. Your editing skills helped me grow as a writer tremendously, and your opinions have allowed me to work harder and dig deeper.

Thank you, for all of your advice and guidance. You are by far the most logical person I’ve ever known and you always help me see things in a more rational and calm manner. I know it hasn’t been easy for you. I know you have had your fair share of annoyances with me, but I’m grateful that you always continued to let me come to you with questions.

Thank you, for the times that you DIDN’T encourage or believe in me & let me work through my anxiety or depression on my own. Because of that, I learned to stand on my own two feet & lift myself up. It still is a daunting task for me at times, but I know now the limitations and boundaries that we have.

Thank you, for being harsh with me, and occasionally hurting my feelings. I know how to be strong and I know how to better manage my sensitivity and emotions because of that. You never tell me what I want to hear, but always what I need to hear, and while I may not always be receptive to it at first, I always reflect on it, and come to the realization that you’re probably right.

Thank you, for allowing me to be negative when I had to be. Because of that, I realized the power of my own thoughts and why positivity is so important. I know we’ve gotten frustrated and annoyed with each other. I know we don’t always understand each other, and I know we are completely different people who see the world (and life) differently. But, despite our disagreements and sparring matches, I still – and will always appreciate each conversation with you, both good and not so good.

Thank you: for not filling up my bucket anymore. At first, I missed it. I missed your encouragement – and sometimes, still do. BUT, you’ve taught me to do the job of filling my own bucket and I couldn’t be more grateful. You forced me to grow, change, and stretch out of my comfort zone. In other words, you forced me to make an effort to improve my life. Who wouldn’t be grateful for that?

Most of all, thank you for being a friend and an extended part of my family. I know I might smother you, and I know you never need my help or my encouragement, but I like to show it to you anyway. It’s just me. It’s who I am. I could change that, but I don’t want to. I like being sensitive, and open, and I like showing people kindness – whether they need it or not.

I don’t know if you will remain in my life down the road. I truly hope you do. But, no matter what, I will always carry the lessons you have taught me. You have a great heart that shines through you, and wonderful values that I will hopefully be able to teach someone someday, and I sincerely thank you for being such an inspiration and a ray of hope for me.


Prayer: God, I know everyone has walked through my life for a reason. And, I know they are always either a blessing or a lesson. But, with this friendship, you gave me both. I feel so lucky to know this wonderful person and I ask that you bless them with your grace, love and peace, all the days of their life. Amen. 

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